I’m a 33 year old stay at home wife and mom of two sweet babies! Our son Grayson is 5 years old and our daughter Caroline is 18 months. Being a mom is by the far the hardest, yet most rewarding job I’ve ever had and I couldn’t imagine doing anything else!! I’ve been married to my husband Brandon for almost 9 years and we are small business owners as well. Becoming a mother has not been the easiest thing for me, as I struggle with infertility due to PCOS and not ovulating. We conceived our son Grayson after 8 months of trying and 1 round of Clomid. Then we suffered a devastating miscarriage at 10 weeks with our second baby. Following that loss I had 3 D&C surgeries due to remaining tissue and other issues. It was a nightmare. Due to the low egg count and reduced egg quality, we consulted a fertility specialist who recommended we pursue In-Vitro Fertilization (IVF). We were blessed with our daughter on our first round and have 2 frozen embryos for the future.
Throughout all the physical trauma of being pregnant, losing our sweet baby, several procedures and my third pregnancy/delivery, my body was a wreck. I tipped the scale at 191lbs the day I gave birth to our daughter on June 5, 2015. I was induced with preeclampsia and struggled with my blood pressure following her birth.
Motherhood is hard but what I wasn’t prepared for after having my children was my deep struggle with postpartum anxiety. It’s often a silent struggle and one that hit me like a truck shortly after our son was born. The overwhelming feelings of anxiety, despair, fear and lack of control are absolutely paralyzing and isolating. Thankfully I was able to seek out the help and support that I needed to work towards being the most healthy version of myself. That journey has not been easy and one that I work on each and every day. Being consistent with the exercise and health is one of the key components to my mental health; while having the support of my husband, family and close friends.
I lost 50lbs prior to getting pregnant with our son on Weight Watchers, but losing the weight after him was SOOOO much harder. While struggling with my emotions and becoming a stay at home mom, food was my comfort and I’ve always been an emotional eater. As long as I can remember, I’ve had a very negative self image, never being able to see myself as others do. I’ve been 5’6” since I was 10 years old and weighed 150lbs. After having our daughter I was determined that I would get back in shape, lose the weight and become healthy physically, emotionally and mentally. I’m happily sacrificed my body to bring my babies into the world, but I wanted it back and to become fit and healthy again.
In October 2015, I started your Bikini Body Mommy 6 Week Mini Challenge but had a difficult time being consistent and struggled with a lot of sickness throughout our house last Fall. I was determined to do better. I started the Bikini Body Mommy Resolution Challenge 3.0 on January 4, 2016 and I am proud to say that I’ve done EVERY SINGLE DAY since!!! After the Resolution Challenge, the moms group on FB that I’m in started BBM 4.0 while we waited for 5.0 to start. Then as soon as 5.0 started we jumped in. After completing it, I went onto to do the BBM 6-Week Couples Challenge and each of the 4 week LIVE Slim Downs.
Currently I’ve begun BBMC 6.0 LIVE and it’s been amazing!!! I haven’t missed ONE day! Even took my weight/computer/success journal with me when we went on a cruise to the Eastern Caribbean, Pigeon Forge AND even to Disney World! That is one of the things that I love most about BBM!! You truly can do it ANYWHERE!! No matter what is going on, I can always get my workout in and being a super busy mom I need something that is easily accessible to my lifestyle! I just don’t have the time to load us all up, go to a gym, spend an hour etc.
I found something even more valuable that weight lost or a smaller pant size when I found BBM. I found MYSELF! It’s so easy to lose yourself as a mom and so hard to find time just for yourself. When our babies are small there is always someone that needs you and at the end of the day you just don’t have anything left to give to yourself. I didn’t want that to be the example that I set for our children. I love being a mom and wouldn’t change it, but I want my children to value certain things and the only way for me to accomplish that is to value them myself. Every night we put our daughter to bed around 7:30p and everyone in the house knows that it’s mommy’s time to workout. Sometimes our son joins in and it’s super fun! He’s always telling me how strong mommy is and loves talking about what my workout is for the night. I LOVE that. My health and fitness routine is an integral part of our family structure now and I have NEVER felt better!! Yes, I am thrilled with how I look and fit into my clothes now. I’ve lost all my baby weight from both my pregnancies too!
More than ALL of the numbers; I am a woman, wife and mom that I’m PROUD of and I’m confident in who I am. I still struggle some days to see myself as I truly am, but I’ve never been is such a positive place as I am now. I thrive at being able to support and encourage other moms to take the time to invest in themselves so they too can be the best version of themselves! I cannot express enough how much the Bikini Body Mommy community has completely changed my life and I’m forever grateful!